"Hey! Can u all move to somewhere else cos we wan to use the court to play 3-3.. this is stackers' territory.. " Well said, by J.. name shall not be mentioned..for the past few yrs or so.. we hav been being kicked ard like a soccer ball.. doesn't mean that they r the official team.. they can hav the rights to shoo us off.. wifout even saying please or thanks.. they r really getting outta hand.. even the T-Net club incharge.. Sir N.. take no action against them even thou our complains.. few yrs back.. when all of us were still noobs.. why did we tried so hard to get them into the team.. and in return this wad we get from them.. despise.. look-down.. ignorance.. we didnt do anything wrong.. and we didnt even treat them in the way they treat us.. shooing us off.. backstabbing us.. even SH.. ever since she's joined them and now became the captain.. her attitude is totally changed.. when they r having training and shoo us off.. that's fine.. nv say a word of 'please' or 'thanks'.. thats also fine.. shooing us off not on their day of training but juz for their own leisure.. and dun even hav the courtesy to move away from our view when we are watching bball match.. thats NOT fine.. retribution will come..

Friends or Fiends
"we are all friends.. lets all work hard together."
When u said this.. do u really mean it? Or did u meant to say 'Fiends' instead of 'Friends'? no idea.. but I seriously doubt that a 'Friend' will gossip about another 'Friend'.. having to choose our MP grouping is kinda not easy ya noe.. these so called 'Friends' when choosing their group mates tends to take the best solution out to fom the group.. that's fine.. but do u still consider urself as somebody's 'Friend' if u were to say bad about them behind their back..

"I dun wanna work wif him.. cos I scared that he will not do work and pull down my result.."
"its MP that we r talking over here.. sure everybody wanna hav a better result.."
"all his fault la.. he is the virus.."
"the other groups also dun wan him.. that's y we hav to regroup.."
"the group will not be strong enough wif him in the group.."
"all becos of him that's y make things so difficult.."

what do u all think if the 'HIM' was referring to u? how will u feel when u heard this? How will u feel if after everything is over den u get to know about these? Do u think u will still consider them as 'Friends'? does the result really that important to u? even more important than the so called 'Friendship'? do u all think that he dun wanna get good results? Are u all denying the rights for him to work hard to prove u all wrong? Stop.. Take a step back.. Stand in the other person's position.. Feel..

Perseverance.. patience.. endurance..
"I would like to lodge a complain about my SIP partner as he is not doing his work. He is showing poor work attitude and does not take pride in his work. Although it is just an internship program, I don't think he has the capability to work in the environment. I am not denying his rights to learn and experience, but it's the attitude that he is showcasing that upsets me. Example: he didn't bother to check his work. I basically have to double check and redo everything that he had done for him. Even thou I pointed out to him that what he is doing is incorrect and showed him the correct way of doing, the next moment he can do it the wrong way again. Not being resourceful enough, he keep questioning me or the supervisor for more tasks and solutions to solve problems that he face without trying to find out the answer himself and in the mean time while I was redoing his work and thus time is crucial for me to keep up with the pace. From what I see, his working attitude would be "Once I'm done with the job, I wouldn't be bothered about it anymore." Seldom did he do his journal as he basically copied my journal to update for himself. I did write reports on the things that I have done or learnt and I have it as prove in word documents. And also, I have to do all the clean up work after him like clearing the empty shipping boxes, which is blocking the pathway and coiling up the cable after use. My work desk is basically littered with empty plastic bags the day I came back after my leave. And after countless reminders, I still have to be careful of him using the penknife, as he didn't even bother to slide the blade back into the holder after use. When I asked him to pass to me the penknife, he would slide out the blade and pass it to me with the blade pointing at me, which could cause serious injuries to me and also other staffs. Please kindly look into this matter and take necessary actions. Thank you."

This is what I supposedly wanna email to the LO and supervisor. He's really getting on my nerves.. and juz 2 days ago I walked out from the office and took leave the next day after dulan-ing him.. but I didnt send the email. Thot of giving him 1 last chance.. like wad I said in the email not denying the rights for him to learn.. and also.. I know the sch nor the supervisor will not take any action against him.. cos the school system is also kinda cock up.. no point in wasting my time to send a pointless email.. sick n tired of all the crap that he is giving.. I oso dun care much of him now.. been buying my own lunch earlier in the morning everyday now at 7-11.. cup noodles.. so I can hav some 'peaceful time' alone during lunch.. in order to buy lunch I tend to wake up and go of earlier.. also save more money.. $1.85 for lunch daily compare to $4.50 in the past.. also can help me jian fei.. den oso can hav more time to my work after my lunch as I noe he sure take his own sweet time to make full use of the 1 hr.. den during that time I can hav some casual chat wif the ppl in the office to noe more of them.. 1 cup noodle kill 6 birds.. kinda happy wif the new arrangement now.. part of it only that is.. still waiting for 11th august.. when I can say "F OFF" to that bugger and he can eat my fist..

10yrs.. friendships nv die?
Issit? or issit that "TIME" really changes a lot of things? As time goes by.. so does the ppl's attitude.. some of them is totally changed.. some slower.. some faster.. but wateva it is.. nothing is the same again..

BP
So called to be my gay partner la.. not the brokeback mountain that type la.. more of like brother type ba.. maybe im alwaz spending time wif him.. thats y dont really see much of a change in him.. know him since pri 5.. thats about 9 years already.. kinda get to be closer only when we all start to play bball tgt.. going thru ups and downs tgt.. and I dun really hav much secrets btw him.. haha.. basically can share everything under the sun.. can see that he changed to the better.. after he met MY.. 9 yrs and counting.. yea babe..

TY
Another bro of mine.. also been 9 yrs of friendship and get to know him better during bball life.. and truly.. he is one hell of a bro when u need him.. lets go do selective whacking of banglahs during xmas eve.. woohoo.. can see a great change in him.. he may look as if he's juz a normal guy u see on street.. but is one wif a difficult background.. ok.. sometimes may be a cheap bastard too.. haha.. but hu's not.. is in our blood to be cheap.. he's cheap or im cheap? it's the same thing.. dun be so cheap..

RAY
Lemonade? Hoho.. thats wad I use to say during pri sch.. "Raymond leh?" another great bro.. but also left wif a lot of problems being unsaid.. and also the first to broke the "RECORD" among us.. that record la.. bp hor.. haha.. also now become my sensei at biking.. fun during nite ride and stealing those aircaps from sports car at nite.. and sleeping at carpark rooftop in the middle of the nite.. haha.. but even that.. he's not the ray that we used to know since pri sch le.. but wadeva it is.. rock on dude..

TS
Another bro since pri sch.. but didnt hav much communication now le.. problems been pushing him off the cliff.. but we will still b there to hold him back.. luckily.. and also unluckily.. means that our wallet will burn a hole each time.. -_-.. now that I learnt.. mahjong is good for ur mind.. wif us around the mahjong table is alwaz full house.. haha.. we still havnt complete our 24 rounds tournament yet leh.. see u on the table..

CH
Ok.. he is a cheap bastard.. really.. becoming more n more hei an.. turning to the dark side.. -_- .. but overall is still a gd guy..

CHYI
Another bro.. or maybe going to be real bro soon.. hoho.. but.. in fact I dun really know him tt well compare to those sick muttons above.. -_-'''.. cant really see much of a change in him.. cos he dun really tell his emotions.. but dun kay kay la.. haha.. cheap bastard.. even he know he oso wunt tell u one.. know him since pri 3.. till now had gone thru countless encounters.. kinda can communicate even wifout words.. and those lame jokes.. nxt time muscle man..

ADA
Lei ho ma? Sei zai bao is here.. hehe.. get to know this pro since poly.. everything so pro.. mai siao siao.. foreign talent leh.. HK rulz.. but dun really noe much of the past about her.. but can share things wif her also.. haha.. still remember those times when im down and call her.. but now ah.. haha.. too bz to call somebody liao la.. hoho.. duck han gei duck wen ngor yum cha ar

FLOR
Hehe.. cute friend of mine.. but always so stress and alwaz sick de.. haiyo.. den same as ada.. know her since poly start de.. for only these 2 yrs plus.. she's alwaz been our da jie of the group leh.. haha.. everybody oso need to listen to her advice de.. one for all and all for one.. learn how to relax abit ba.. but not too slack oso.. -.- .. and nxt sem onwards can go bedok to queue up for bus again le.. haha..

ELLE
Hmm.. wad shld I say? Can say is somebody that cause me to make a lot of changes ba.. and also somebody that I see changes to the better after so many incidents.. things arent the same as b4 le.. let all be left as memories..

SM + EDDY
Woohoo.. get to noe these 2 dudes in poly life.. but aint really close to them.. and juz get to noe them better during year 2 when we r in the same class.. k la.. they may look abit pai kia.. budden they r good at heart.. and sometimes very lame.. our grp alwaz filled with laughters wif them ard.. during this yr or so I learn a lot from them too.. if only theres more time.. maybe we can be great frenz..

MEL
Hmm.. get to noe this crazy lil ger since yr 2.. but quite stunned that she noe me since yr 1.. sorry ah.. didnt really go notice about other ppl de.. from wad I see la.. she's still as cheerful as alwaz even thou it's the opposite inside her heart.. abit of changes here and there during these times.. oso somebody that can share ur probs wif.. althou she herself gt a lot of probs.. -_- .. get to slp early k.. late nites are bad..

SP
This ger here ah.. haha.. also dun really noe how I get to noe her de.. think is thru friendster ba.. very chatty.. and alwaz come disturb ppl.. jk la.. sometimes can be quite moody ba.. but is still as cheerful to brighten up ur day.. get to noe her since yr 2 also.. and alwaz get to see her especially at bugis.. -.-''' .. and I can become ur personal styling consultant le.. alwaz ask for comments for dressing.. den hor.. we can set up a server for ppl to download songs liao.. alwaz gt songs to share de.. hehe.. rock on babe..

PL
Get to noe her during orientation and im her assistant for her group.. maybe is jus a coincident that I get to noe her ba.. when I jus appear at the wrong time at the wrong place.. since den its already a month plus le ba.. a lot of things happened.. juz hope that time can heal everything.. we r still frenz.. =)

VON
This one ah.. is my da jie da.. get to noe her during OL camp.. my grp mate and also my night walk partner.. really the greatest jie that I ever had.. ok.. didnt really hav any other da jies also.. -_- .. anywayz.. another troubled ger.. alwaz finding ppl to listen to her sorrow and getting comments or feedbacks.. 1 of the most impt ppl that made changes in my life too.. after all those lectures and scoldings and pinching of my nose.. sorry that im such a useless didi ah.. but hey.. I will alwaz be listening to u de k.. althou sometimes ur lectures can take up almost 70% of my free time.. haha.. dun be too numb.. or u may miss out somebody hu is ard u all the time.. feel..

SIYING
Dr Tan SY.. noe this ger during OL camp also.. but b4 that since yr 2 had been seeing her ard the sch.. and also during some events.. but she didnt notice that I spoke to her last time.. can say is kinda blur ba.. =x .. ok la.. cos she also very stressed up wif stuff and so on.. 90% of life sucks.. but still gt that 10% of happiness ard u too.. duno y alwaz like to chat wif her when im down.. nv fails to cheer me up again.. and she kinda crappy also.. oh ya.. she really look like 1 of my fren.. who will be mentioned ltr.. haha.. sad that I oso will be leaving after nxt sem le.. if not I think we can also become great frenz le.. my fan club wunt lose to urs de ok.. u still owe me $17,500 and counting.. pay or wait for my lawyer's letter.. hehe

JOSSIE + SI JIE + SERENA + ISABELLE
Get to noe these babes during OL oso.. great frenz I shld say.. and also alwaz there to support me when im down.. bits and pieces of my moral support.. if only I hav more time.. and hor.. serena.. u really look like 1 of my fren lor.. ltr will get to mention also.. 24 jun.. dun forget.. see u den.. haha.. jossie ah.. already a term had past le.. but the book is still here.. I carrying it everyday wif me.. haha.. and u say u will accompany me some other day de.. and also my bubble tea.. I still waiting for tt.. haha.. si jie.. wahaha.. stay cute as ever k.. thanks for all the care n concern.. isabelle too.. thanks for alwaz asking me how am I le.. dun alwaz so stress k.. rest more.. haha.. u all muz take good care k.. hope can make full use of nxt sem to spend more time wif u all.. hehe..

Class 4B/2001
Ok.. this is not my class actually.. but to me is like im already part of the class le.. last time during sec sch I will alwaz go look for them during recess time.. a bunch of fun n loving ppl.. sometimes kinda envy them to be so happy everyday.. carefree ppl.. haha.. see u all ard.. peace out..

KRIS & KRYS
Noe these 2 siao char bo thru my god sis.. 1 in sec4 1 in sec1.. at first is like not much to say de oso.. budden get to noe them more liao hor.. wah lau.. si funny de lor.. jitau cai.. especially krys ah.. last time alwaz like shy shy type see me duno run till 10 meters away.. now hor.. is jitau noisy de lor.. so much things to say n comment about.. haha.. and hor kris ah.. heyoyo.. wassup.. long time nv suan the sbs bus driver in sch liao.. si can suan till high qi lai de lor.. den their hse also like chalet lidat.. very freestyle de.. so gd.. haha.. and alwaz I slp till like 'an fa xian chang' lidat.. really brought a lot of joy n laughter into my life.. gt time go ur chalet slack again.. haha.. adios..

RACHELLE
Noe this ger thru krys n kris.. their cousin ma.. duh.. den also like to play bball.. and hor I still own her bdae present lor.. omg.. paiseh ah.. so long liao.. will get it for u soon de la.. haha.. soon la hor.. den is also like krys lidat alwaz shy shy de.. budden when noe her more liao den is different case liao lor.. hehe.. also a fun loving ger and good to chat wif.. and still remember they 3 coming to my hse to bai nian when im all alone during CNY.. hehe.. hope to see u soon k.. cheers

MINYI
BOO!! Jocelyn if u ever see this.. this is the ger that I say look alike of u.. haha.. agreed by my fren TY.. get to noe this ger thru BP lor.. of cos la.. somebody's lao po ma.. 1 yr already.. muz stay 4eva ya.. haha.. also somebody hu will cheers me up.. ok.. sometimes in quite a lame way.. but also somebody hu alwaz keep her prob and dun show them out.. a great fren also.. hehe.. hope to go sing k again soon.. yeeeeeyayyyyy!!

HUIQI
Noe this ger ger here when playing bball de.. alwaz call me 'BE xiao mei'.. haiyoz.. but is also somebody that really noe how to care for other ppl.. made a great impact in me too.. somethings nv change.. luckily.. still as cheerful as ever.. smile.. =D

JUAN
Hmm.. how shld I say.. kinda complicated ba.. noe this ger here since sec1.. and at first is those kinda frenz that I seldom tok to.. and is also somebody till now im still guilty over about ba.. having a lot of changes in my life and also her life.. she is someone that will be there when u need somebody to tok to.. fun loving ger.. and chatty at times.. -_- .. maybe fate is playing tricks ba.. the story is twisted 180 degree.. feelings.. personality.. but luckily.. glad that we are still frenz.. althou I noe ive been letting u down a lot of times.. and those scars.. will become memories.. hehe.. im still waiting to see those kittens..

GWEN + WL + MARC
Woot.. a bunch of crazy frenz.. noe them during yr1 in poly thru arts appreciation.. great frenz alwaz having laughters and jokes.. everything started with the lame jokes that WL tell us.. haha.. miss those times when we r having rehearsal and those performances.. but sad to say.. cant see them in sch anymore.. but hey.. we r still keeping in touch ya.. hope to meet up soon..

EVELYN + PERLINE + MADELINE + XY
Wow.. this ppl here ah.. all jokers ah.. haha.. get to noe them during ALP and I duno y become their incharge.. and they start calling me 'Lao Da'.. -_- .. they r super duper frenly and fun to hang out wif.. keep in touch..

YUMEI
Heh.. noe this ger since pri 3.. but I cant really remember ba.. poor memory.. same class as me for the 4 years in pri sch.. still use to remember she's our grp leader leh.. and duno y having this deep impression of the last day of sch when out form teacher telling each of us her last words of wisdoms and at that moment she cried.. and I sitting behind throw to her a packet of tissue paper.. -_- .. haha.. duno whether she remember anot.. can say is one of the first few friends that I ever noe since I came to SG ba.. and is still keeping in touch till now for 10 years.. ever since get into different sec sch le.. den start to lose contact.. but fortunately still be able to see each other during class gatherings and stuff.. another memorable moment would be during new year time after my o level.. and we went to the JBox near my area for class gathering and also sing K.. and that jacket she wore.. im still wearing it everyday.. and also the song by Jay Chou - Qing Tian.. at first dun really listen to his songs de.. but ever since u ask me to sing that song for u when chatting on msn.. -_-.. I start to listen to his songs.. and is really nice.. one more thing.. ur voice oso very nice ya noe.. shld go for sg idol.. haha.. but I still wan my pizza.. been years u owe me that.. and oso the movie treat with popcorn.. and also the xmas n vday thingy.. and the present.. hur hur.. heh.. hope to go out for class gathering again soon.. still remember the times when I appear at ur work place and I called u when u were standing right behind me.. -_-.. still as cheerful as ever.. its been 2 and half years since 'that'.. hmm.. and I wanna belief in 'that'.. cheers.. =D

Stuck in the middle..
"Have I done the right thing?" im still asking myself this qn.. after leaving the police station.. still pondering over the things that HE said and SHE said.. question.. "will u kill a person that u really love?" and "will u die for a person that u really love?".. why does the word 'love' makes so much of an impact to ppl's life and their thinking? From a talented and wif bright future guy turned into a hatred and despair filled guy.. is this call 'love'? B lost everything becos of this so called 'love'.. lost his job.. lost his restaurant.. everything.. to his 'love'.. MZ.. on the other hand.. juz take as it come.. his restaurant.. his money.. everything.. 20 panadols in 5 min is nothing.. is the process of washing the stomach after that that hurts.. its not easy to talk a person out of suicide.. and its not easy to talk a person into listening n feel how others feel.. I wonder.. is love more important or ur future more important? And it leads on to qns after qns.. bla bla bla.. anyway.. the whole incident happened as B was MZ's ex.. and they were happily tgt.. once.. till a pt where B is willing to giv up everything for MZ.. even his career.. and he sold his restaurant for MZ putting her name under the contract n blah.. and they even registered at ROM.. at first he tot its settled.. but then comes the disaster when MZ suddenly break wif him.. B lost everything.. love.. restaurant.. together wif his dream n career.. and I get to noe that cos once duno y I ever gt the chance to chat wif him when he added me in msn.. can say is my senior.. and I duno whether is the 20 panadols that's making him say things or did he really mean it.. "when I get the chance to see her again I sure gonna kill her.." .. things gt cooled.. persuade him to giv up on the thot of doing silly things to himself or others.. but not for long.. juz not long ago I met MZ.. and I tot at first she is juz saying jokingly.. "kor.. u accompany me go up to my hse.. gt ppl keep following me.." its B.. I noe is him from those fotos I saw.. but I dun think he noe hu I am.. cos I nv show him any pic of me.. and ever since after tt nite's chat I'd nv say a word to him.. and he definitely looked pissed off.. and she tried pulling me.. and from the strength she pulling I noe is not a joke.. but he juz come closing in on us and MZ juz continue walking off wifout me liao.. I was at the bball court back den.. and something is definitely not right over here.. cos once he said he's the head of some gang.. and after he came out after a few yrs he gav up on the gang and becos of MZ he started up the restaurant.. and juz reminded me of the things he said about killing her.. quickly rushed up to her hse.. nobody's there.. and when I called they were still at void deck and heard those screaming sound when he snatching the hp from MZ.. basically I juz ran down from 15 floor in less den 30sec even I juz sprain my ankle few days ago.. =.= .. found them.. called.. ask MZ to walk to the nearest police post which is juz next to my hse there.. while I keep following behind them n not letting him see me.. cos I seriously felt some hostility from him wif his expression.. reach there and police take over.. end of story? I duno.. cos if really everything's out.. both will be at fault.. B can be charged for assaulting / stalking her or wad so ever.. and MZ may be charged for cheating in marriage.. but nonetheless.. is over.. for now.. when im stuck in the middle..

Cold arrow shooter
If u all were those loyal reader of my blog.. which I dun think will hav much or any.. den maybe u all shld noe about the Anonymous that hav been tagging nonsense over at my tag board.. been stopped for quite awhile since that.. but now is reappearing.. whoever it is.. is really damn childish.. I dunno who hav I offended.. but if u r not happy wif me.. juz come straight at me tell me in my face.. dun hav to get others involved.. and pls.. be a man.. dare to say dare to admit.. I dun like ppl saying bad about my frenz.. I dun like ppl shooting cold arrows at me.. I dun like ppl say bad things and dun dare to admit.. and what I hate more than all this.. is the ANONYMOUS person..

SIP == Stoning In Progress
SIP is so damn fun.. everyday is juz stoning.. and I already stoned for 8 weeks.. half way thru SIP le.. and I hope that the stoning will end soon.. everything is ruined.. all thanks to my SIP partner..

My Life.. Myself.. My world..
Thru the darkest moments in life.. I understooded a lot of things.. nobody will ever come for ur help de.. cry out till tears dried and shout out till voice lost and its juz of no use.. how much do u all noe about me? How much do u all understand about me? How much do u all feel for me? Not just me.. but to others ard u as well.. did u really tried to understand n touch on their world they r in? see the world that they see? Feel the pain that they take? .. communication.. simplest and easiest way to understand others.. ask urselves.. do u like to hear critics or praises? But how many times had u every said words of praise to others? Wad comes ard goes ard.. if u can get hold of the 'key' to inside of a person's heart den its much easier to communicate wif each other.. not saying that critics and not gd.. but truthful critics.. things that normally not please to hear.. r normally things that r most truthful to u.. stop living inside a fake world.. carrying that fake smile everyday.. saying all those fake stuff.. get real..


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Adios~