Sunday, April 29, 2007

wasted

im wasted

Posted by BeBe at 11:14 PM

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

zero degree

partial mental disorder-ed

didnt go work today

supposedly already awoke since 7am

bathed.. get changed.. sat down.. i juz vent my mood out

sat down at the sofa.. thinking of wad i've read..

many things juz flash past me

msg bp say i not going work..

got out on my krave and off to east coast

it was a sunny morning.. but not anymore

started to drizzle when i reach clark quay

till it become pouring rain when i reach kallang

cold.. drenched.. tired.. famished.. my mind was blank..

i juz keep on going..

surprisingly east coast lagoon food center is under renovation..

and its still pouring..

drenched.. with no where to go.. cold.. with no warmth to hold

at tt point.. i realised.. tts my life..

i was alwaz on my own.. heading no where..

i was dripping wet and the wind is as cold as blizzard

who can i call for help?

who would come to help?

why shld i call for help?

when i noe no one would be here..

i duno whether issit rain or tear on my face

but still i hav to go on..

not to let the cold catch hold of me..

where shld i head to?

wads my aim?

where is my destination?

i duno

the rain helped to cleanse my mind

i juz cant think of anything..

maybe.. juz 1.. at tt moment..

when i come around.. i was on my way back home..

was out for 2.5 hrs..

reach home took a hot shower..

and sleep my afternoon away..

woke up only at 9pm..

and there comes the nagging again..

shut

Posted by BeBe at 1:22 AM

Sunday, April 22, 2007

Destroyed

yup.. ur right.. im juz a piece of trash.. =)

Posted by BeBe at 3:19 PM

Sunday, April 08, 2007

grrrr

shyt... so many thots.. so fan.. so confused.. so much things to do.. yet so little time..

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yawn~~~

so bored...

slacked for a few days..

parents went to cameron since fri early morning

till now.. sunday 10.45pm still not back home yet..

being stucked at home cant do anithing

wanna go out to hav a ride oso cant..

"its dangerous out there at nite ya noe"

yea?

so wad?

tts my point

juz feel like being tied down..

damn sick n tired of it

my whole life

juz being bounded..

stop stopping me from doing wad i wan can?

i would rather die out there den die of boredom at home

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time to think of future?

and how?

stupid NS

wads the point?

yea i noe its not funny

but

wahahaha

wad hav i got to start wif?

got no motivation at all to do anything..

what do i get in return?

why shld i do this?

why shld i do that?

eh.. im not some kinda golden retriever that muz do wadeva u all tell me to...

im myself

still trying to gain back the old self of mine tt i use to be..

been lost for too long while trying to 'become' the ppl around me..

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whyyy...

i dun wanna become like those ppl ard me..

i wanna get my own life too..

but its juz so meaningless to do things alone..

alone...

am i?

i duno..

what is there seems to be not there..

what isnt there alwaz seem to be there

contradicting..

juz like my feelings..

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aiya.. duno wad to write le la..

too many thots..

grrrrr....

drafted =)

Posted by BeBe at 9:55 PM

Sunday, April 01, 2007

NAH!

SIAN~!

submitted my timeSHIT today.. not as good as expected.. but not unexpected.. anyways.. suppose hav 3 tasks for the day:

- hair cut
- service bike
- pack my room

in the end only 1 tasks is donw.. wth..
went to cut hair after work.. juz thinner it.. not much change.. haha.. waste money again.. dun care.. den uncle n cty they all keep asking.. fan si ren le.. ask them 4 come down.. in the mean time.. when i reach home is already 3pm le.. quickly grab my krave run down 11 storey.. stupid lift renovation work la.. den chiong my way to chin swee.. reach.. but in the end didnt do anithing.. nabuey.. they say the bike is not bought from them they cannot help to tune.. wth.. in the end the boss come out to ask them help.. budden they do it in like 5min.. and its shit.. nothing done.. or shld i say from bad to worse.. even more out of tune.. coz if hav to wait for the guy to really go fine tune it will hav to wait for about 30min.. and by den will be 4 plus liao.. damn.. sua liao la.. chiong my way back to henderson in 2-7 gear.. nobody came.. wth.. nvm.. since i reach le muz well juz let the bike shop uncle hav a look.. and after tuning for like 30min.. it start to rain liao.. den they all say dun play liao.. wth.. somemore the bike is still half way done.. and the uncle juz dump my bike to a side with all the cables dangling and duno go where to server other customer.. na buey.. sua liao la.. tune it myself.. kns de.. gotton abit better.. but still is not in good shape.. haiz.. think hav to go for full service liao.. which will cost like $100+? kns..

went home.. bathe.. den sis come home.. went out to dine at tiong bahru.. the new restaurant.. duno wad xiao xun feng.. wah.. the service is like shyt la.. cheena man open de stall.. no uniform.. no nothing.. workers all no experience.. operation is in a mess.. service is shyt.. attitude prob.. ordered quite some food.. juz to try it out.. turns out to be.. small small proportion.. but expensive.. and its not really tt fantastic ya noe.. kns.. i myself can do better den them.. and they no brain.. who will serve desert to customer at the start of the meal? funny dao.. den somemore food came.. ordered ramen.. coz tts wad their so called famous dish.. i ordered some duno wad shyt "Shi Cheng Niu Rou La Mian".. or wad so ever call singapura beef noodle or some shyt la.. knn.. come out to be some canned beef in noodles wif 1 whole spoonful of dried chilli in chilli oil.. i see liao is like wah kao.. ho seh liao lah.. coz im having flu for a few days too.. i see it already lost appitide liao.. wad i can taste is juz hot n spicy.. nothing else.. i duno whether issit beef or some tree bark tt they use to disguise as beef.. kns de Lan~! .. and the ramen is like mee sua sia.. wth is tt sia??? omg and its not cheap.. sian ji pua liao.. scope off some chilli and juz fast fast throw it down my stomach.. nvm.. den sam ordered the curry chicken ramen.. its the best liao.. and which we waited for it like 30min.. AFTER WE FINISH EATING EVERYTHING.. wth~~.. they still breeding the chicken issit?? or they went to india to buy some curry?? knn de.. wait till buey tong liao.. wanna ask them to cancel the order so can go eat some other things.. ask the waiter to come.. they juz come here ask whether the food has come anot.. den went off liao.. the next time he come pass us even pretend not to see us.. best! .. den ask him to come again.. wanna cancel the order liao.. coz wanna go off.. den he juz ask us to wait a few more moment aden he went off liao.. yea.. HE ASKED US TO WAIT!!.. NOT FOLLOWING WAD WE TELL THEM TO DO!! so he is telling us wad to do now.. wah kao.. best of best liao la.. wanna eat cannot eat.. wanna leave oso cannot leave.. haha.. go eat shyt la.. close down fast fast la.. den when we wanna go giv them the bill le den it come.. and its like already no mood to eat liao.. fo F de service.. and its nothing much surprising too.. there write is RAMEN.. but it turns out to be KWAY TEOW.. shuang dao~~~ .. when we wanna leave le den they come refill our tea.. which we been telling them since 30mins ago... brainless retards.. and we eat all those shyt and it cost us $70+.. including SERVICE CHARGE!! .. fuck u la.. serve my ass man.. nv go there to eat anymore.. xiao xuan feng.. i'll giv u a hell of a storm man..

freak.. my finger is like nv gonna heal.. think age is catching up on me liao.. =.= ... na hia.. think is fracture.. den suay.. thumb and last finger of right hand.. last finger one confirm is liao.. cos normal sprain wunt last for like a month plus de ba.. i even lost count of when i fractured it liao.. shyt.. gotta get it well before it kanna feng shi.. sian la.. flu attack.. at home make one tonne of wanton using tissue liao.. my voice so funny now la.. dun wanna tok much.. not like some ppl.. at work suddenly will got some amazing n stunning sentenses come out from no where one.. damn swee.. shld record it down someday.. fucking hell.. duno whether she too bored or mental disorder or juz plain nag.. sometimes when the office quiet down.. junks will start to come out from her.. in her past life she must be a voice recorder.. somemore is a spoiled one use by some mental hospital patient.. everyday saying the same old useless crap and producing those irritating act cute noice.. yi ba nian ji liaoo.. bai tuo la.. dun assume u noe other ppl very well can.. see other ppl's bad point but duno u urself the bad points.. only noe how to gossip behind ppl's back.. manager so wad? as if i care? im a part timer come here especially to giv u a hell of a time.. kick ur bloody arse man.. everybody in the company oso siao siao de.. especially those in manager posts.. aussie wif attitude prob who speaks a chuck of shyt tt nobody understands.. i think i can understand wad banglas say better den urs lor.. and the ang moh BOSS.. doesnt mean the company is urs u can dun giv face to other ppl lor.. teach u some chinese manners lesson den u noe.. hang u upside down n slap ur bloody face ah..

WGS is round the corner.. and ya.. shyt.. no jacket yet.. damn.. thin kmy last resort is the G2K at marina tt i saw the other time.. i duno wads it like and wad i feel is that its gonna be a month in hell.. swee.. too late to step out now.. see a step and take a step ba.. duno whether will be going over to IT side anot? duno wad will i be doing during the event? duno can i teke it anot? my fren told me that i shld take a rest for now b4 going in to NS.. cos yes.. its pretty shyt work here working in this shytty company facing all the shyt ppl wif shyt attitude going to take a shyt everyday and juz ask us to step on it.. anyway.. juz emphazising that its a shitty work down here.. same pay for OT.. same pay for web design same pay to do shyt work.. i can get better rates out there man.. i can take this time to complete my CCNA cert and come out as a network engineer seh.. wadeva man.. its ending soon.. !