Wednesday, November 29, 2006

off to nowhere

i need to take some time off to clear some thots.. maybe a day or 2.. sorry.. =)

Posted by BeBe at 9:40 PM

hurt

hmm... been quite down these few days.. trying hard to keep up wif the smiles.. =) ... but.. in the end still cant overcome the painful feelings.. =( ... realise that whenever im hurt... theres nobody beside me.. not like u.. at least u still will have alot ppl to care for u.. there r things that i cant share wif everyone.. everytime i fall.. i fall flat on my face.. i got up.. and i fall again.. wad did i do wrong?... =( ... its not wrong to love a person... but theres everytime something pop up and say.. "Hey.. go away la.. she's mine"... happened a few times.. and i got nowhere to fall back to.. nvm.. i still accept it.. maybe some ppl are more possessive ba.. but i nv do anithing wrong.. why do they have to cheat on me.. pretending to be someone else and tell me stuff.. think.. if u r in my shoe.. how would u feel.. maybe u wunt ever have this feeling.. but i dun think u will like it too.. but i still accepted.. why cant i hav a chance to proof myself.. why dun u giv it a try... why cant i juz hav a simple relationship.. why do others hav to attack on me.. why cant i get an answer.. tell me why.. .. .. ='(

Posted by BeBe at 7:55 PM

Thursday, November 23, 2006

sick

been sick for the past few days le.. since the start of the week.. have flu and cold.. but lucky not serious.. but last for a very long time.. till now still havnt recover yet.. haiyo.. saded.. duno is she influence me or i influence her.. in the end now we both oso sick.. took a few panadols and some herbal medicine.. but still no use.. hate it.. =(

feel so useless... even im juz beside her.. i cant do anithing to make her feel better.. so close.. yet so far.. all i can do now is juz sit there quietly and watch over her ba.. sorry.. coz i also dun have the right to do anything.. im oso not ur who.. kinda duno wad to do also.. see u sad.. see u sick.. yet cant do anithing.. feel so stress.. but at least he still gt call u.. den u feel better le.. =) .. listening to the song 'yong qi' by liang jing ru now.. really.. it needs alot of courage to love somebody.. but hey.. i not saying i will give up so easily now k.. i will wait for the day to come de.. =)

take care.. get well soon..

Posted by BeBe at 10:18 PM

Monday, November 20, 2006

3 words

ppl alwaz say that sickness cant spread to fools... but i can prove them wrong.. maybe is that person who is special? or issit that this tradition doesnt work on tt person? hmm... who knows? haha.. but anyways.. tt person so ke lian sia.. coz need to take care of cousins den end up sick.. but aiyo.. alwaz say know how to take care of urself n is very strong.. budden still sick.. den end up duno y i also sick... normally other ppl's sickness wunt spread to me de sia.. ... ... -.-''' ... tt makes 2 fools.. hey.. fools are happy ppl ok.. happy go lucky.. =D

hmm... everything takes time ba.. or maybe is ur harddrive not fast enough.. hehe.. but anyways.. if u r happy wif the situation now den its alrite.. try to feed back to me ba.. cos if not i oso wunt noe how u feel and stuff.. =)

3 words for u at the back of the seat on bus 88 upper deck right side about 5 rows from the back.. =P

Posted by BeBe at 10:36 PM

Sunday, November 19, 2006

missing in progress

hehe.. been slacking at home for the week ends.. nv step out of my hse sia.. juz eat n eat n eat.. aiyo.. getting fatter n fatter le la.. haha.. why nv go out? .. hmm.. coz nobody ask me to? and also no place to go lor.. den why i nv ask ppl out? becos oso duno ask who to go out.. hehe.. everybody so busy.. so juz slack at home lor.. been watching the e zuo ju zhi wen for the past 2 days.. watch till epi 15 le.. still havnt finish yet.. hehe.. muz fasta watch finish.. den can reformat com le.. kanna virus so long le still havnt fix yet.. haiyo.. den still gt a korean show 'save the last dance for me'.. about the guy who lost the memory and stuff de.. also watch till half way.. havnt finish yet.. haha..

and hor.. omg.. today i go clean my room leh.. haha.. miracle sia.. and wash my shoes and blah.. stunned.. hehe.. i hardworking ok.. hehe.. so nxt time ppl come my hse anytime also can le.. hehe.. hmm.. nxt wk Sam would be going to Holland.. so left wif my poor sis here in sg.. he ask me to take care of her.. den in return he buy something nice for me.. wahaha.. yeah!.. =D

den 22nd Dec my mum n dad would be going to HK le.. left wif me and my sis.. and on the 27th my sis also will be going over to HK.. so wif me alone.. haiyo.. my mum returning on 1st Jan and sis returning on 7th.. hmm.. so left wif me alone from 27th Dec to 1st Jan.. wonder how to spend my xmas.. saded.. everybody also going out.. nobody ask me to go out.. maybe staying at home ba.. or see if anybody free tt day den go out lor.. =D.. but best is tt she is free to accompany me la.. hehe.. althou its like quite impossible.. =X ..

hmm.. she's been out to m'sia for the weekend.. maybe tts y i oso didnt go out ba.. lost motivation.. haha.. she going there wif her family n him.. go there shopping buy alot of stuff.. haha.. and wedding dinner also.. so weird de.. every month also gt wedding dinner.. haha.. hope she's having fun over there ba.. tml den can see here again le.. yeah.. think she will be quite tired tml ba.. somemore duno she's still sick anot.. =( .. anyway.. hope to see her soon!!

missing you!! =)

Posted by BeBe at 8:44 PM

Thursday, November 16, 2006

courage the cowardly me

everytime i login to blogger.. i would juz close it after a few hours wif not a word being writen down.. juz dun hav the courage to voice out how i feel n stuff.. juz afraid to make any move.. say any word.. do any thing.. why? .. i duno.. juz got millions of thots and words to say.. but any wrong things i say may juz lead to an end.. i also duno wad i saying le la.. juz confused.. very.. pressure.. stress.. all i need is juz a chance.. a chance to prove to both u n me that this can work out de.. but still.. he still has a place inside ur heart.. wonder when will tt be me inside.. =) .. im someone thats easily jealous de ba.. and shld i say im juz very simple.. seeing u close wif someone else is not really tt nice ba.. but.. having the thot that u r happy wif tt person.. all i can do is juz keep quiet and hope tt u r really happy ba.. =)

you may try to convince me to giv up or stuff.. but.. wad can i do? u shld understand how i feel.. juz let me be stubborn for the first time ba.. =) ..

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Posted by BeBe at 1:48 AM

Monday, November 13, 2006

virus attack!!

ahhh!!!.. both my lappy and com kanna virus ah.. happy new year pull my ear la.. =S .. damn sian.. have to reformat both my lappy and com.. I DUN WAN!!... den everything gone le.. no more songs and games.. =(

fats! fats! and more FATS!!.. ahhh.. from small fatty last time become a bamboo stick now become pig again liao la.. ahaha.. keep eating n eating n eating.. and im still feeling hungry.. omg.. stress.. napfa coming up in a week's time.. go in army early liao la.. also gd thing.. haha.. free food free training free sleeping place.. somemore is being paid to do all these.. wahaha..

oh man.. basketball is really not for me le sia.. deproved until like shit.. having difficulties even against those xiao dis.. run for about 5 to 10min already cant catch my breath liao.. haha.. old man.. age also starting wif 2x liao.. -.-''' .. play the DC till so lousy.. haha..no more tanglin carinhill also.. enough liao.. hehe.. =P

thats all.. no mood.. =)

Posted by BeBe at 11:57 PM

Saturday, November 11, 2006

JELLY!!!

hehe.. 6.45pm now.. writing this blog at her hse.. hehe.. damn kuku la.. haha.. muz say something first.. today she say somebody's name become 'JELLY' cos at first wanna say journal + _ _ _ _.. den combine become JELLY... -.-''' ... lolx.. den very funny la today.. laugh till pengz.. hehe.. hope can everyday be lidat.. =) ... best wishes..