Monday, March 26, 2007

madness

HAHAHAHAH~!!!!!

YAY~!!!

FINALLY~!!

CERTIFIED AN HOUGANG CHALET VIP~!!!!

HAHAHA~!!!

KEE SIAO LIAO LA~!!!

TMD~!!!

WTH IS WRONG WITH ME~???

KNN~!!!

SUDDENLY MOOD SO GOOD~!!!

BUT IM OT HAPPY AT ALL~!!!

SHYT~!!!

THINK I GOING CRAZY LIAO~...

XIU DOU LIAO~!!!

SHORT CIRCUIT~!!!!!

I DUN LIKE THIS~!!!

SOMEBODY JUZ KILL ME~!!!

hahaha~~~...

haiya... whats the big deal???
wth am i thinking???
think so much for wad??
its the same old thing...
nobody listens...
hahahaha...
even so...
theres also nothing can be done about it...
so juz let it me la..
let me be too..
i already duno who i am or wad i am liao...
am i a human being??
if so..
am i a normal one?
hahahaha...
really sia...
everything reverse when it reaches its limit...
haha..
wth am i saying???
i duno.. dun care..
or shld i say?
hahaha... wads the point of saying???
juz giving myself and others more trouble??
hahaha... say oso nothing can be done.. forget it den..
dun waste my effort..
crazy arse...
duno who am i saying this to also...
HI~ BLOGGER!!!
hahahahahahah!!!!
WAH LAU EH~!!!!
why everything so mafan one...
go n die la...
*YAWNZZZZ*
im tired...
but no mood to sleep leh..
ahahaha...
WHAT THE HELL~!!!!
STUPID M1~!!
hahahah....
OMG... SWENSENS IS NICE~!!
hahahahahahah~!!!
SIAN LA~!!!....
i wanna go learn driving la...
wa lau eh~!!...
i wanna go learn bike also...
OEI~!!!!!
i still havnt service my bike la.. KNS~!!!
when the hell is ubin trip????
camping at ECP???
BUKIT TIMAH???
hahaha... find something extreme to do leh..
very sian of my life la...
too bored....
HAHAHAHA~!!!
imgaine going sky diving without a parachute...
is damn sian + suay la...
u noe u going to die and yet u cant do anithing about it...
HAHAHA....
sadist la...
HELPP~!!~!~!~!
hahahaha

the end... fullstop.. s........

Posted by BeBe at 11:58 PM

Sunday, March 25, 2007

great

i fractured yet another finger..

Posted by BeBe at 4:30 PM

Saturday, March 24, 2007

hatred

what???
so what???
as if i choose to....
i dun wan any of the money...
i dun deserve it...
im juz a part timer come here to zhuo bo lan...
i happy...
i juz wanna get the hell outta here..
its not where i belong..
i didnt come here to be made a fool for entertainment..
shyt~
not happy?
its ok..
im even more not happy den u all..
i juz wanna do things tt make myself happier..
is it a crime?
is it wrong?
sorry to be an eyesore to everyone..
i see myself oso as an eyesore..

everytime i try to get up..
theres sure somebody coming along to step on me fiercely..

i didnt say anithing doesnt mean i feel nothing..

i juz swallow back everything and listen..

i tried to take the initiative to ask ard..
but why did i wake up so early juz to come back?
is this wad i get in return?
fug off la..
im not a scape goat for everyone to blame fault on..
i do not take any responsibilities to take in everything u all say..
i got my own say too..
but in this world i juz seem so insignificant..

money is the root to all evil..
becoz of money ppl will do anithing for it..
man without money is nothing..
or issit...
man: "without money, its nothing.."
i prefer the latter..
since young i been having prejudices about wich ppl and money..
wad can money bring to u?
happiness?
if so..
wad if one day the money runs out?
does it implies that the happiness will run out as well?
can money buy friendship?
for how long can it last?
can money buy a life?
how cheap can my life get?
im juz a worthless piece of shyt..
end of story..

these few weeks had nv been happy b4..
wad i felt is juz...
anger..
hatred..
sadness..
anxious..
useless..
fear..

wtf is happening to me??
wtf is happening ard me??
wtf is going on in this world??

why did i first start playing bball??
from wad i remember..
its becoz i think tt its fun..
i think tt i can make more frenz..
i think tt it can make me stronger..
but after so long..
wad has it turned into??
hatred is overwhelming joy..
we all wanna be strong..
wad i been thinking is juz how to defeat the opponent
how to be more fierce
how to score
how to improve
it seems that the reason to play had turn to become something sinister
it seems that the joy n laughter i once had is already long gone..
it seems that i made more foes den frenz..
it seems that i had become weaker by the days..
from since i once love bball so much..
it turns out tt i hate it as much too..

wad will tml be for me?
will there be any?
will i survive it thru?
is there still a long way ahead of me?
nobody has the responsibility to be there for me..
nobody will be there all the time..
i once believed in forever..
but it seems like its juz another fairytale that is not workable in reality
everything that has a beginning..
has an end..
juz like myself..
sometimes i juz wish tt i can control my fate.. my destiny..
it hasnt been written..
it hasnt become history..
but why issit human alwaz realise the truth when its too late?
no pain.. no gain..
greater risks come with greater achievement..
at the same time..
greater disappointment..
....

what the hell am i talking about??
what is real?
what is not?
how do u noe tt its real??
does it matter??
i juz wanna be happier..
is it really tt difficult??
i duno..
i really duno anymore..

f a d e d ~

Posted by BeBe at 8:34 PM

Friday, March 23, 2007

F

FUG~~~!!

everything juz went wild..
thots juz gone everywhere..
fug it.. damn..
shyt!
depression strikes again..
freaking hell~
wads the purpose of me holding everything back???
wads the purpose of me trying to divert all my attention???
wads the purpose of me dont wanna mention it anymore???
wads the purpose of me in life???
wads the purpose of me getting into deeper shyt???
wads the purpose of all these purpose??? when the truth is that... i cant get over anything..
FUG! FUG! FUG! FUG! FUG!
god damn me!
rain!
rain all u wan man~

wad the hell is wrong wif me?
is it wrong to juz find a way to make myself happier???
wad the hell am i arguing wif myself??
why the hell i hate the other half of me so much??
shyt~~
its a war zone down here i tell u~
wad m i feeling now???
wads this all about???

cant everything be juz settled once and for all???
cant my life juz be done wif once and for all???
why do the same things keep heppening over and over again n again till im dead Dead DEAD~!!
hear me scream!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*sigh*

why

sick n tired of everything
a life wif no purpose
no meaning
everytime i found one
i would find my other half trying to take over me
i try to fight it
but im tired of trying anymore

maybe its me that needs to go to the mental hospital ba

i already duno wads right and wads wrong...
damn.. think im sick...
mentally..
am i?
well...
who cares anyway?
i try to scream out..
but no one hears me
i try to reach out..
but no one grabs me
wad do i get in the end?

SP..
no matter wad happens..
hang on to wad u hav..
dun end up like wad im now..

YM..
.................
im trying hard to believe
im trying hard to trust
mi not trying hard enough?
im sorry
to disappoint u..
and myself..

princess..
maybe..
our communication had already broken down le..
im sorry..

kulaa..
i duno..
i really duno anything..

-------------------

i ate gun powder for my meals
it juz keep accumulating..
at home..
when nobody its around..
it triggered..
and i juz went berserk
blaming..
cursing..
scolding..
all kinda shyt happens..
wad has this family come into conclusion..
i wonder..
this place that im staying in..
is juz another place for me to sleep in..
it seems to hav many things..
but it doesnt in reality..
hardly get to see my family like juz 3 to 4 hours a day..
even if i saw..
the first word that come out from my mouth wunt be something good
im sorry..

wad am i?
do i seem funny?
why had i become an entertainment for everyone?
juz push me out to die and u all juz laugh from behind
its ok man..

i shldve known better..

but i still went out to die for u all..

i respect u all..
unlike u all..

.......

damn me..
starting to blame on everything and anything again..
shyt!
looking back on the things ive done..
i was trying to be some one..
but now..
wad hav i turned into?
at this moment..
i felt i fought off the other half of me..
but i noe..
i will be back soon..

STOPPPPP~!!!!
i juz wanna stop..
stop everything...
stop my steps..
stop my breathing..
stop my heart beating..

fug the world man..
wad has this world come into...
its already beyond our imagination
everything is juz outta our control
everyone is juz slaves of destiny
we do wad we hav to do in order to survive
its a cruel world out there
everything tts been taught to children are juz plain bullshit
trying to blind them from the truth and reality

...

Adios~

Posted by BeBe at 8:28 PM

Thursday, March 22, 2007

KOALA BEAR!!!!

wahahahaha... =.='''

madednessationalisticallily maded

damn sian ah~~~~
one day yet another
one week yet another
chasing a nv reaching goal

suppose meeting tml after work
end up dun think so
let fate decide ba

--------

Grrrrrrrrrr~~!!!!
fannn ahhhhhgrrrrrrr
once againnnnn
noooooooo

howwwwwwww????
whyyyyyyyy????
mixxxxed + confusssssed
losssssst
heeeeeelp

Posted by BeBe at 9:12 PM

Monday, March 19, 2007

i love...

I LOVE MY MAMA~!! =D

Posted by BeBe at 8:01 AM

comments from everyone

what?

what u all wan?

how can ppl tell one's character and thots juz by reading their blog?

am i the me that u all noe of?

how much do u ppl noe about me?

neither do i noe myself very well..

dun assume that u all noe me very well..

right

2nd thunder at 7.19

Posted by BeBe at 7:14 AM

weather change like flipping coin

right...

doesnt hav to take effect so fast right..

its juz a matter of a few hours..

and like.. Whao...

i hear the first thunder at 7am..

the sky juz turn dark..

its freaking myself out too ya noe..

i dun believe it sometimes too but it really is happening..

coincidence?

fate?

if so..

i guess..

its gonna be a rainy season soon....

Posted by BeBe at 7:04 AM

Sunday, March 18, 2007

yuan lai....

friday n sat went for work.. its so boring.. coz i noe nuts about accounting.. alwaz juz sit there do nothing.. do those filing stuff and cleaning office.. haiz.. juz feel so useless and out of place.. budden at least theres still somethings tt i look forward to work.. for $$ and to kill time ba.. coz if not working oso will be at home rot and waste $$.. oso get to start chatting wif Kulaa.. hehe.. fan ah fan ah.. so so so so fan.. sat is half day work.. can dress down too.. meaning no need formal.. still ok.. budden sadly Kulaa not working on sat.. and luckily neither is our supervisor.. at there help to do those filing n stuff.. only i sit at there to listen music..

den after work.. suppose wanna meet elle coz she not in good mood.. wanna go out play den cheer her up.. budden she say tired n sleepy.. haiyo.. so let her rest at home ba.. kinda worried.. i noe got things happened.. budden she dun wanna say.. haiz.. oso no use forcing.. when she feel like saying den i listen ba.. =) .. hmm.. so went to play bball.. coz uncle oso wanna play.. long time didnt ask him to play le.. coz he oso wunt be staying here for long.. going back to indo to buy house.. hehe.. got time shld go there play.. =) .. and also his present hav yet to giv him.. somethings really weird in this world de ba.. humans get along together.. it doesnt matter who they are.. but they juz enjoy each other's company n enjoy life together.. i noe this 'uncle' for like 3 yrs le ba.. alwaz play bball and chat together.. but till now i still duno his name.. funny huh.. if everyone is like this.. wif no hidden agenda.. there wunt be any conflict in the world le ba.. =) .. tired tired.. long time didnt exercise le.. since start of work.. no time to go jogging oso..

there comes stackers and their crap.. this time their coach say they book both courts for training.. wtf la.. as if they r the government lidat.. even the tnet club incharge oso dun care.. from far see us oso run off liao.. shyt.. nvm.. den saw tianyi.. she oso seldom come down de.. think becoz now she help to coach the boy's team ba.. coz today their first training.. so went to ask her to organise 5-5 friendly wif the guys.. cos juz now we r still playing together wif them before their training.. budden their coach dun wan.. everything he say de.. say wad training havnt end until 10pm.. and shyt they finish it at 9.. fine.. FINE~.. sian.. went home.. was wanting to go mac for some slacking session wif ym.. budden tired.. didnt go.. went to sleep at 11+..

zzz

suddenly woke up at 5am..

went outside living room sit at sofa..

went back to sleep..

woke up at 1pm.. saw all the msn msg n stuff.. and call back to elle.. drop my call 3 times.. sian half.. haiz.. nxt time call me if my msn didnt reply.. need ppl to wake me up from my sleep also.. if not i will be sleeping like a log till duno when liao.. den read her blog and stuff.. sian another half.. den she called.. finally.. chat on msn.. budden still wunt say anithing.. ok.. i noe she mood not gd again.. and those nicks she wrote.. i saw.. i thought.. i felt.. but maybe like wad she say.. our communication had broken down.. maybe i cant feel how she feel anymore.. but i juz wan her to feel better.. coz i was lidat too.. =) .. when theres nobody ard to cheer me up.. i juz went crazy.. no matter wad i do.. nobody care.. juz feel so hopeless.. love to an extend when it become hopeless.. i juz went HAHAHAHA... theres things tt i dun wanna say too.. things i juz kept to myself.. maybe like wad i said.. i did regreted.. and sad.. and angry.. with or without me.. problems are still there.. so why the F did i made tt decision at first.. it make me feel as thou my decision is for no gd reason.. i came and i leave.. it doesnt make any difference.. what am i? somebody trying to be there but as if im juz something extra.. im sorry to sound so harsh.. but did u think for me? u dun wan me to do things for ur sake.. but did u do things for ur sake too? u made decision.. ok.. fine.. but how would i feel? maybe its none of my business.. but i juz cant watch this any more.. sometimes i juz dun wanna care.. like wad u said dun look back.. but did u? did u??? dun ask ppl to do it b4 u did it.. yes.. nobody is perfect and everybody is selfish sometimes.. tell me how do ppl stay together if everyone is so selfish? sometimes i juz duno wad to say... seeing u lidat.. i can be selfish too and can juz heck care and pretend i didnt see or hear anithing.. but i cant.. juz the same for u.. wad if one day i juz fell and i cant stand up anymore.. wad if i met wif some freak accident someday and end up in hospital for life? wunt u hav even 1 bit of concern? if yes.. den i guess im juz wasting my time writing all this crap here..

sorry for sounding so harsh and fierce..

...

cheer up.. maybe its wad u alwaz wanted to be loved and pampered by him.. but.. theres alwaz 2 sides to 1 coin.. nothing is forever in this world.. this world has already exceed our imagination and expectation.. nothing is for certain de.. juz be so dumb so be so blind and hopelessly in love.. .. so dun say animore sorry le.. coz in the end the one who hurt the most is you.. seeing u lidat my heart oso ache.. somethings cant be forced.. but it doesnt stop u from trying to take the first step out.. everybody gotta learn to stand up on their own.. one day he may leave.. one day ur mummy may leave.. one day i may leave.. one day everybody will leave for certain.. its not anyone's duty to be there for u 24/7 to support u.. wad i can do is juz to guide u and let u learn.. maybe u dun wan.. but its a never changing fact.. i noe u r trying hard to try to take this all by urself.. keeping everything to urself.. and i oso got no rights to ask for anithing.. wad i can do is juz to be there for u.. =) .. alwaz the stubborn little princess that i noe of.. wads promised will alwaz stay the same..

Posted by BeBe at 3:59 PM

Friday, March 16, 2007

zzz

14th March 2007 -- Wednesday

3rd day of my boring work again.. hhaha.. starting to get sian of it.. cos.. mainly becoz im being assigned to the accounts and HR dept.. and i noe nuts about accounting nor HR stuff nor office operation.. ahah.. zzz... they tok about account stuff wad accumulated depreciation i at there stunned look at them.. haha.. today basically juz stay in office to help tally the fixed assets and bla.. lunch time went out wif the company de intern.. claire.. from nyp business management.. haha.. same course as her.. but different batch.. saded they duno each other.. den is back to office to tally again.. bla bla bla.. after work.. bp going meet MY.. den wanna meet TY to go tbp walk walk.. budden walk halfway he ps me liao.. sianed.. go home le lor.. den call her.. haha.. finally she pick up the phone!!! hehe.. happies.. and off to bed.. zzzz...

15th March 2007 -- Thursday

4th day to waste my youth... zzz... mac in the morning.. den is back to hell.. boredom can kill a person slowly sia.. haha.. but today i become loan shark.. haha.. legalised loan shark.. calling other companys to get them to pay their bills.. haha.. no fun.. den is help to file things up.. and vaccum and blah.. coz today duno who birthday in the company.. quite high pose de.. den think they celebrate at the accounts dept there ba.. coz is kinda wulu.. at a corner of the office.. not much ppl go there.. so to give the person a surprise.. bla bla.. den i still dun get y Kula alwaz laugh at us.. not really laugh la.. like giggle lidat.. -.-... hai ok la.. not bad.. hehe.. den today huat ah.. battle of the century.. accounts vs accounting mgr.. hahaha.. the mgr abit kee siao de.. duno wad she saying.. sometimes talking to her ownself.. den talk to us oso talk rubbish.. say till one of my colleague dulan.. throw paper and attidue.. haha.. woo... den all the accounts went out.. left the mgr alone.. haha.. dun work liao.. all go slack.. go to the building de technician's place to slack.. which is at the power riser there.. den slack while suddenly got loud sound from our room.. PAK!!! ... whole building power failure.. hahaha... cool eh.. something wrong wif above level de office la.. haha.. den when going for lunch tt time our HR in charge den come back.. oso another no-discipline king kong.. cos these days office alwaz power failure.. den ask her to go buy some torch light.. from morning buy till lunch time den come back.. madness.. den bp went bank in check.. i stay in office to do filing n stuff.. haha.. -.-... bored.. 6.. knock off time.. went to get changed.. woo hoo.. finally no need formal wear.. happie dao~~... took bus to cine to meet the poly gang.. dinner at cartel.. fun n happie time.. den went to ps play arcade.. den the rest went home.. left me n elle.. walk walk at ps.. den she went to took bus to his hse.. i took bus home.. yup..

Posted by BeBe at 12:02 AM

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

work work work

12th March 2007 -- Monday

Today is the first day of work.. kinda tired la.. coz sleep at 2am the previous nite.. hehe.. and woke up at 7.30 in the morning.. yawnz~~ .. havnt been waking up so early these days.. haha.. alwaz about noon den wake up de.. hmm.. meet up wif bp at busstop.. den went to bm mac there for breakfast n fill up those forms.. den took another bus to the place there.. bla bla bla.. normal procedures.. gotta sit wif the account ppl.. haha.. kinda weird and out of place sia.. from IT change to other work.. ok.. the room there gt account and HR.. and im suppose to assist them.. haha.. den do those sai kang work.. read up company policy.. send courier.. photocopy.. bla bla.. lunch at ABC market which is juz nearby.. budden not really like the food there.. but bo bian la.. hav to go wif colleagues.. den ltr went out to pick up a cheque from another company and bank in.. at town area... den sneak off to play arcade at PS there.. wahaha.. out for 2 hrs den back to office.. damn tired la.. sleep on bus.. zzz.. den hav to vaccum floor and the fun thing is the paper shreding machine la.. bo liao go shread paper.. haha.. sianz~~... den 630 lidat went off le.. went to vivo wif bp.. was looking for black jacket for the event.. budden too bad they didnt sell le.. sianz~~.. hav to source for other places le.. hm.. den went eat breaktalk.. play arcade again.. zzz... den slack there till 9+ den go home le lor.. first day of work still quite ok.. and off to bed.. zzzz

13th March 2007 -- Tuesday

yawnz~~... zzzz... tired.. slp at 1+ again.. haha.. was chatting n playing mine sweeper.. omg.. gonna beat my own high score.. hahaha.. crazy.. been playing mine sweeper these days.. now my high score to complete the expert 99 mines de timing is 390s.. hav to try harder.. haha.. anyways.. morning same old thing.. went mac for breakfast.. bla bla.. reach office.. den slack awhile.. duno y today like suddenly got alot work liao.. prepare some letter to send out.. den send courier.. check the fixed asset register for the past years.. den lunch.. oso at ABC market.. again didnt eat much.. not quite nice the food.. den off to pick up cheque and cash out at PS again.. ahhh.. the citibank the teller so pretty la.. hahaha.. =x.. walk awhile in PS.. bla bla.. den back to office.. check register again.. den check invoice for those refund transactions.. aiya.. all boring stuff la.. den juz like everyone says.. the office is full of cold arrows flying here n there.. haha.. lucky im the quiet one.. tts y alwaz listen to wad others say.. and which i think that aiya.. if u dun respect others of cos u dun expect them to respect u ma.. haha.. juz hav to noe wad tt person wans and work towards tt to avoid conflicts ba.. everybody juz hav to compromise to each other la.. and work end at 6 again.. took buz home n here im blogging.. fullstop..

anyway.. today suppose to be the day tt she come back from camp.. hmm.. duno whether shld i call anot.. juz scared tt she didnt pick up the phone again.. haiyo.. sianzed.. no time to meet up also.. haha.. nxt wk onward den start to get busy le.. alot ppl going oversea business trip den many things will be passed on to us.. and i think we will be in the event's roster.. meaning april will hav no time for nothing.. == no life.. hehe.. haiz.. its ok ba.. =) .. time is for me to find..

Posted by BeBe at 7:50 PM

Sunday, March 11, 2007

EMO

omfg~~~

its an EMO world out there ~~

everything is so EMO~!! went to take some EMO sunset pic wif ray at around river vally area.. and the EMO sky suddenly turned dark.. den saw an EMO bird trap in the canel and i dun think its swimming.. so EMO.. den went to take a look at the swiss valley bike shop nearby.. omfgggg~.. the bikes are so EMO cool.. den took an EMO bus to bugis.. ray wanna buy an EMO pouch from zinc.. alritey.. saw melissa there wif her fren.. buying some EMO pouch too.. walk a few more EMO rounds and off we go.. and ray is complaining about that EMO pouch tt he bought.. it look so freaking EMO and gay.. woot woot.. heck.. den off to home.. still playing those EMO games.. listening to those EMO songs.. make me more n more EMO.. and ppl are asking me to watch some EMO movies too...

EMO-ed

Posted by BeBe at 10:20 PM

Saturday, March 10, 2007

What's left of us in this song?

it's been a month hasnt it.. guess everything's back to how it was.. everybody's heading their own direction.. life goes on.. well.. it's not a bad thing after all.. juz abit of missing pieces here n there.. seeing those significant things and walking thru those familiar places..

* close eyes * take a deep breath * open eyes again *

maybe it seem to hav ended.. but.. i dunno.. maybe its a way tt i try to put up a strong front.. but its the only option i've got.. no.. there are other options.. somewhere out there.. well.. cant really say so.. or maybe those options has already expired during the struggle.. yes.. 1 did.. expired.. but not griefing over it.. but nonetheless.. wish u r happy too.. and u too.. =) ...

* oh damn.. my comic is covered wif tears *

now.. option no. 2.. or shld i say the option even b4 any.. well.. i duno whether do u really exist.. sometimes u are here.. sometimes u disappear.. trying to get use to it.. but.. dun really think its a good idea if communications are limited.. i dun wan having a day when i hav to paste posters of missing person around singapore.. but.. tts the way of how u work.. so everything seems cool.. for now.. till after 13th.. we shall see.. and those presents ungiven.. pizza.. movies.. will be on the way..

* once upon a time 3 yrs 5 months ago... and the story continued...?? *

shyt... having this pain at my right knee since 2 days ago.. maybe due to over exercise.. been jogging these days.. and not forgetting bball.. and its giving me a hell of a time.. round trip to esplanade and sentosa.. nope.. not on bike.. on bus 11.. no pain no gain? yes.. pain-ing now.. so m i gain-ing? maybe.. gaining somemore weights.. gain somemore so hav to pain somemore.. damn.. i cant jump any higher.. i cant even walk properly now.. or shld i say cant even straighten my knee..

* shyt.. and work is like starting in 2 days time.. hav to wear formal everyday.. now where the hell m i gonna get the blazer? *

G2K selling 200 bucks for a blazer wif matching bottom.. -.- ... hmmm... maybe later.. event is in april.. shld i ask to claim from the company? woooo... fat hope.. zzzz.. suddenly dun feel like going for work.. well.. den wad shld i do at home? looking at the four walls.. talking to myself.. laugh the hell out of some sill stuff.. jog till my knee breaks.. oh heck... damn the driving sch.. lessons all fully booked till early may.. shld hav taken private in the first place.. shld i juz scrap it and change to bike? nonono... mum's gonna kill me for tt.. ah.. heck it.. till end of NS den reconsider.. not having much time now... oh damn the work.. office hours sux.. no time to meet up after the 13th.. shyt.. only can meet up at nite if possible.. the keywork is alwaz "IF"..

* wooo... whao.. nv did i knew tt she actually did blogged.. *
* ooo... hmm... *
* -reading in progress- *
* oops.. didnt saw the new post a few days ago.. =x *

heh.. hope tt i can trust again.. trying to giv my full confidence to her.. in the meantime gaining it thru time itself... so.. let me.. once again.. like a fool.. who's too sure.. im like a bird.. who's lost her wings.. a fire.. without its flame.. .. .. and the song goes on.. JJ Lim - Now that she's gone.. wads left of us.. in this song?..