Wednesday, February 14, 2007

happy valentines day

Happy Valentines' Day to everyone out there.. =D

hope tt everybody enjoys this memorable day of togetherness wif their loved ones.. and to those who are yet to love or be loved... wish that someday you will find ur true love.. =D

and as for me.. heh.. i dated my assignments and presentation today.. so xin fu.. hohoho.. still thinking bout the late nite call wif princess.. =) .. but sadly cant meet up wif her today cos of somethings.. hehe.. but anyway.. hope tt she enjoys her day too.. =D

so stress.. but luckily.. im freed~!!!!
wahahaha.. today juz finish up everything le.. yay.. done with cmsk4 brochure.. adnk practical assessment.. individual interview and MP presentation.. wahaha.. budden still left with fashion assignment 2 + 3 and MP labsheets and final term exam.. hehe.. stress.. but still can relax for these few days.. =D

Posted by BeBe at 11:07 PM

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

broken heart

slow slow Slow SLOW~!!!

how slow can i get any further?!?
haiz...

juz alot alot n alot of thots running thru my mind..
firstly.. really hav to say a big big SORRY to princess.. for wad happened back then.. i noe u dun like ppl say sorry after they already did something.. but juz feel sorry to make u feel bad.. haiz.. thot thru alot of things.. but im those kinda person tt dun learn their lesson until its too late de ba.. tried to control.. but juz seem hard.. but i shld learn it this time.. learn it the hard way.. juz like u did.. it made me very hard to trust anyone anymore.. not even myself.. and im juz afraid to let go when i finally thot that i found my reliance.. i juz dun dare to trust anyone else...

how naive can i get... keep hanging on to the believe that someday.. u will return.. but.. maybe its a dream tt will nv come true ba.. maybe all the while it is this believe that keep me going ba.. but someday.. it may juz be gone.. and i.. juz lost my way... really very lost.. i duno wad i doing every now and then.. you gave me an identity.. that im someone worthwhile in this world.. its because of u tt portrait the image of me.. because of u.. i am who i am.. i feel alive... u would not allow any drop of tears to roll down from my cheek.. juz hav a sudden surge of guilt.. that wad i did for u is nv ever enough to repay ur love.. juz feel that im so useless.. maybe im juz a coward who only sees the good things but didnt appreciate all the background efforts ba.. i cant bear to leave u.. sorry.. i may juz break down any moment.. human alwaz only realise someone's importance when its near the time of losing someone.. im stubborn n selfish.. maybe for a month.. maybe a year or two.. maybe till im in my 30s or 40s.. maybe forever.. that i may still be unable to get over u.. nv had i been so serious in love b4.. first in my lifetime.. that i really can entrust u wif my life.. im willing to giv up everything and anything juz to be wif u again..

been trying hard to keep up wif everyone's pace.. projs are pushing me off the edge.. parents are worried.. and i juz wanna feel better.. but its hard.. infront of u.. i juz broke down.. im juz like a small baby without the care of a mother.. like wad u said.. u juz hav to be beside me and i will feel much better.. but.. having the thot that it would juz be another heart piercing preparation to leave u later on.. i juz duno wad to do.. i juz went mad.. i noe i shldnt do it.. but i juz wanna find some comfort.. the feeling of heartbeat that i had nv felt before.. sometimes juz wish that u could bring my heart together wif u when u were to leave.. maybe i would feel better.. feeling that my heart is alwaz wif u.. .... ... and i broke down.. yet again..

Posted by BeBe at 1:49 AM

Sunday, February 11, 2007

sakura sakura

well.. decisions are made.. things cooled down.. wads said is said.. tears are droped.. more den enough promises are broken.. thats about it le ba.. hehe.. but juz tt.. its all parts and puzzles of life ba.. wipe off the tears and it would be fine.. =) ... its not really a sad thing.. but instead i felt that i learnt alot from it.. and from u.. thanks for everything.. truly

back to reality.. i really am a lucky bastard to have princess around me still caring for me.. kinda worry about my fren.. who is like going thru alot of stress too.. maybe similar situation as me.. but is a fatal mistake... wads done is done.. cannot be undone... duno wad i said will hav any effect anot.. but i still can lend u my shoulder to lean on.. haha.. althou abit gay.. but i dun care.. seeing my fren so jialat.. somehow i can feel how deep he loves her.. juz like im to princess.. but happy or sad.. life still goes on ya.. maybe like wad he said is true.. ppl alwaz say dun giv up the whole forest because of a tree.. but to me.. i would rather giv up the whole forest juz because of a tree.. juz simply because.. i love it.. =D .. thats already became part of my life.. juz like princess.. and her to him.. losing her == losing his world.. for now.. wad can be done is to wait ba.. till a day when she is touched by u again.. muz hav faith.. not anywhere else but in your heart.. =D

oh man... im so stressed.. tired tired.. althou i noe theres still alot things to be done.. but yet juz feel so relaxed.. dun feel like doing anithing.. maybe becoz mp is over le ba.. den somemore cmsk OP is over le.. and lucky i noe tt i didnt fail.. =) .. now still left with cmsk brochure.. adnk practcal assessment.. mp presentation.. and fashion assignment 2 + 3... den is final year exam liao.. but after tt still gotta produce those dumbo lab sheets.. haiyo.. stressed.. haha.. but yup.. i will jiayou de.. princess too.. and everybody.. =D ..

after which.. it maybe time for everybody to go seperate ways le ba.. sad.. dada shld be going U.. and guys shld be going dumbo NS for 2 yrs.. lame.. after which when i come out also already 23+ liao.. omg.. old.. den princess maybe going overseas.. sad sad sad.. ='( ... muz keep in contact k.. muz muz muz~!! promised de.. =) .. and as for me.. i oso duno.. maybe taking my sis' path ba.. most prob she would be bring me into her company.. as network engineer or wadsoever.. and at the same time shld be going for part time U ba.. so shld be saving much more time.. =) .. hope to see princess.. haha.. dun ask why.. juz wanna see.. fullstop..

Posted by BeBe at 11:25 PM

Friday, February 09, 2007

PMS~!

rahhhhhh...... PMS~!!! =.='''
duno why today very bad mood.. split personality... sometimes juz wanna shout out loud and find something to fa xie... Grrr~~.... sorry sorry to princess... =( ... today abit attitude.. coz sick.. and u oso sick.. morning took 2 panadol.. whole day dun feel well.. juz wan u to accompany me.. budden u going his hse.. somemore u so busy on the phone all the while.. haiz.. wanna say i dun like oso cannot.. =x ... having cough for a few days also le.. hope we get well soon ba.. =) ...

ROARR~!!!
feel so bad.. come home only quarrel wif my mum over the air freshener in my room.. duno y at a certain point of time in a month sure will feel like this de.. pms liao.. =.=''' ... hehe.. maybe need sometime to go crazy awhile den ok le lor.. hehe.. saded.. krave still havnt go for service yet.. no time.. cannot ride.. haiz.. valentines day coming oso.. juz realise.. even more sianz.. coz.. haiz... hope tt princess will be free ba.. if not den most prob will be juz staying home to slp.. =( ... haiz... this semester ending soon le.. duno wad to do after tt.. where to go oso duno.. duno still can see princess anot.. ='( ... but i noe if we have faith sure can see de la.. =D

haiz.. so bored.. hp didnt ring for whole day except for princess' call.. =( ... everyday oso so bored.. *yawnz*... tired but dun feel like sleeping... keep listening to the song 'gan qing xian' ... really have a very deep meaning.. and really tells how i feel.. =)

Posted by BeBe at 11:36 PM

cmsk sux

Posted by BeBe at 12:08 AM

Sunday, February 04, 2007

thankiez

lets cut down the crapz.. enough of all the sorries.. juz get down to the basics and learn how to love wif a pure heart.. no worries.. no burdens.. juz.. happy.. =) .. i will try my best de.. jiayou~! .. u too.. thanks for everything.. =')

Posted by BeBe at 12:12 AM

Thursday, February 01, 2007

yay!

Today is the HaPpIeSt DaY of my life~! =D

Posted by BeBe at 7:55 PM

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