Saturday, June 30, 2007
ignore or appreciate
right.. juz remember the phrase.. for the 'man bu jiang li'.."Ignore the UNREASONABLE.. Appreciate the UNDERSTANDING.."
yup.. thats wad she said too.. =)
Posted by BeBe at 8:00 PM
1st book out
HUAT AH!!finally!! first book out!! after 2 weeks of torture.. hahaha... ok la.. wunt say is torture ba.. but juz that the training is tough.. but oh well.. still hav to go thru it.. haha.. got nothing much to complain about the training.. juz those idiots at other platoons who alwaz dun cooperate.. den end up we who are doing it well oso face the punishments.. sianz.. but oh well.. juz treat it as another form of training ba.. haha
learnt alot of things in camp.. met new frenz.. and juz come to think of it that we will only be seeing each other for 3 months.. and after tt we will be going to different units.. the time span is not really tt long actually.. so soon already 2 weeks gone le.. soon will be 2 months.. soon will be 2 years.. changes in me? heh.. maybe.. juz hav to push myself to keep going.. gotta hav a goal or aim.. motivations.. and encouragements from ppl ard me and from those i care for.. its more of mental den physical training.. juz hope tt i wunt collapse so soon.. keep going.. keep going.. juz keep going.. =)
whats my aim? i wanna go to OCS.. why? i wanna proof myself that i got the ability to take the lead.. and tell my parents that i ain a little boy no more.. so first.. i need to be a gd follower in order to become a gd leader.. i really admire my platoon sergeant.. for his way of putting the thots into our minds.. not physical but mental training.. salute.. after 2 years.. where will i see myself to be at? hopefully my 2 years will go thru smoothly.. and after tt.. hope that wad she say will come true.. going to the same uni together.. and hopefully by then things would be much clearer.. =)
looking forward to every book out days.. alwaz not slipping the chance to contact her or ask her out.. but.. haha.. alwaz juz my luck.. =S .. well.. i aint that 'man bu jiang li' too ba.. shyt.. forgot wads the eng word for the phrase.. haha.. anyway.. u got ur work to do and alwaz busy.. so juz treat as goving more space for each other ba.. =) .. less is more.. hope my bet for this is true.. haha..
going 8pm soon.. 24 hours later i will be back into camp le.. hehe.. see how fast time pass.. hope that next book out will come soon.. hope that my food poisoning get well soon... =.=''' .. hope that my hair will grow back soon.. lolx.. hope that 2 years will pass by soon.. and hope that she will accept me soon.. haha.. =x
Posted by BeBe at 7:34 PM
Friday, June 15, 2007
last word
from this point of moment.. 30 hours more.. its gonna be the day when its suppose to say a boy will change to be a man.. like.. whao.. really? im so impressed.. *clap clap*.. kinda dun really feel anything..really..
nothing..
everyday juz like normal day past by.. wads the diff? theres no tension.. no excitement.. not hoping for anithing to happen.. juz feel so dumb.. wadeva man.. im alwaz dumb.. so juz be dumber..
2 yrs.. millions of things can happen within 2 yrs.. life could change.. ppl could change.. places could change.. everything could change.. and theres nothing that i can do about it.. maybe i wunt noe.. maybe i dun wanna noe.. maybe i would change too.. everything is juz too late.. part of me is looking forward to it.. and part of me is not..
1 word to describe my feelings now: SHIT
2 words to describe my mood now: BLOODY SHIT
3 words to describe my life now: BLOODY HELL SHIT
but i predict that it would be worse when im in.. but b4 going in.. i feel like im already in deep shit.. dun wish to elaborate more.. i aint gd at sharing things.. thanks to u all's care n concern and wad-so-eva pursuing a better life for ur child wanting them to hav the best in everything.. i aint some 10 yrs old freaking hell kid.. cant i jus hav a moment of peace.. i noe how u all feel but it juz aint gonna work.. anymore.. its too late.. im sorry too.. very..
misplace of trust.. again n again.. wake up my idea can i? wad the hell m i thinking of? knock some sense into my brain can i? i've been conned... am i? hav i just realised it? or what the hell am i thinking of? cool.. i just lost my mind.. i wanna trust.. yet im scared.. i trusted.. yet i stepped back.. im juz an easily contented small kid.. u treat me gd.. i will treat u like god.. yet its alwaz these gods that made me lost my confidence again n again.. but yet they treat me gd.. again.. i misplaced it..
come to think of it.. and from wad i can see.. i dun really hav much frenz actually.. im an angry young kid now ok.. wadeva shyt tt comes outta my mouth might hurt ya.. but i dun care.. tts my attitude.. nobody cares till its too late.. trying to salvage the aftermath.. wads the point? acting like a saint.. when i think everybody is juz insane.. promises are meant to be broken.. juz like rules are meant to be followed.. but laws are meant to be broken..
Guilty Conscience.. juz like having a million voices telling me to do different things at the same time.. which voice shld i listen to? there aint juz 1 or 2 voices.. but millions of them.. wad is the right thing? wad is the wrong thing? who defines wads right and wads wrong? theres alwaz an explanation for everything.. so how can anione define wad im doing is right or wrong? why issit right? why issit wrong? .. .. .. hell... crap toking..
Good bye, myself...
Posted by BeBe at 1:10 AM
Thursday, June 14, 2007
test for u all
Create your own Friend Test here
Posted by BeBe at 2:23 AM
Sunday, June 10, 2007
60.. oso with some missing
1. Where did your last kiss taken place?
hmm.. in my room.. =x
2. Who knows a secret or two about you?
close frenz of me.. =)
3. 3words to explain why you last threw up?
i cant remember
4. Have you ever burned yourself?
yeap.. playing wif lighter.. lol
5. Who knows you the best?
hehe.. the one who know me the best shld noe wads the answer.. =)
8. Who is your role model?
come to think of it.. i really duno.. guess im my own role model.. =p
9. Would you ever want to be a model?
errr... maybe?
13. Who do you want to be with right now?
somebody.. but kinda impossible.. =(
15. Have you ever lost someone you really love?
nv will be.. they r alwaz in my heart.. =)
16. Your motivation for tonight?
errr.. chiong game.. -.-''' ... no life.. coz nothing to do yet not sleepy
17. Last thing to hurt you?
someone that i trust betrayed me..
18. Last person to make you laugh?
chyi the lame basket.. =.='''
19. Last thing you ate?
custard pudding.. nice~ .. =)
21. Have you ever accidentally eaten an insect?
yea.. a few times.. flies.. mosquitoes
22. Do daddy long legs freak you out?
nope.. mine's longer
23. Have you ever cleaned up someone else's vomit?
not really
24. Have you ever dropped food on the floor and eaten it?
alwaz.. haha.. im a garbage bin.. =.='''
25. Do you kiss your pets on the mouth?
i think is the other way round..
28. Do you ever talk to the TV?
dun watch TV
29. Would you ever work in a retirement home?
maybe not..
30. Do you believe plants have feelings?
yeap
31. Do you laugh at people with "bowl" haircuts?
no.. i use to be 1 of them.. lol!
32. Do you have nervous twitches?
sometimes.. mental disorder.. =S
33. Are you ever purposely irritate?
huh? purposely go irritate others? maybe.. haha..
36. Love or lust?
love..
37. What did you do today?
went to chyi's hse den play bball at tiong cc
38. Favorite food?
any nice food.. i not really tt picky.. =)
39. Do you believe that your 1st love never dies?
oh.. hmm.. haha.. come to think of it.. YUP! =)
40. What event are you looking forward to coming up next?
meeting up with tt pig before enlistment.. gotta treasure every single moment from now on.. =)
42. Most favorite people?
piggy pig.. poly gang.. phk (work place) gang.. quan bu ren (pri sch bfs =.=''' ) gang.. and a few others.. =)
44. What was the last thing you ordered at McDonald's?
Student meal filet-o-fish.. no up-size.. coke as drink.. not member.. 2 curry sause.. thank you
45. Are you an emotional person?
aparently yes.. =s
46. Do you like your name?
not really..
47. What color of shirt are you wearing?
err.. transparent?
48. Do you have plans for tomorrow?
hav lots of plans but none will seem to work.. supposingly wanna re-make my specs den afternoon mabe go look for that pig at her work place.. and dinner wif family.. BUT~~~ .. tml chyi n bro will be coming over to play till maybe evening..
49. Do you work?
not anymore.. soon will be working for the country.. =.=''
50. Do you have a bf/gf?
bf... yes alot.. gf.. not at the moment..
52. What are you listening to right now?
oh.. juz realise i havnt turn up the music.. =p .. ok.. now is Liang Zhi Lian Ren by Cao Ge
53. Biggest fear?
think theres a similar qn above rite? hmm.. fear of being betrayed.. and nobody is ard.. =(
55. How long have you been a part of friendster?
go check it out urself.. Member Since: Dec 2003
56. Favorite place to be?
anywhere as long as tt piggy is ard.. =x .. when alone.. err... bball court.. esplanade.. east coast.. home..
57. Do you have a crush?
not anymore.. =)
58. Do you love anybody?
hmm.. maybe.. i oso not sure..
59. Does anyone hate you?
haha.. err.. duno.. think yes ba.. =S
60. How many people do you trust fully?
hmm.. maybe 1.. =)
Posted by BeBe at 12:03 AM
Saturday, June 09, 2007
tests
You Mostly Have Your Emotions in CheckSometimes your emotions get out of control, but you usually are a pretty stable person. You can find a lot to be happy about, as long as things are going your way. But if a few bad things happen to you, you tend to go in a bit of a downward spiral. Luckily, you usually come out of it okay and no worse for the wear.
Can You Keep Your Emotions in Check?
Your Love Style is Agape
You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner. Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare. You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie. Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you. For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.
What's Your Love Style?
What Your Dreams Mean...
Your dreams seem to show that you're very preoccupied with your fears and problems. These bad dreams indicate that you need to spend more time on your issues during the day.
What Do Your Dreams Mean?
You Are 60% Happy
You're definitely a happy person, even though you have your down moments. You tend to get the most out of life, though there's always some more happiness to be squeezed.
How Happy Are You?
Your Personality Is Idealist (NF)
You are a passionate, caring, and unique person. You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals. You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily. Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings. You seek out other empathetic people to befriend. Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships. In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily. At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career. With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone. As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style. On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours.
The Three Question Personality Test
You Are a Little Scary
You've got a nice edge to you. Use it.
How Scary Are You?
Your Power Element is Fire
Your power color: red
Your energy: hot
Your season: spring
Like a fire, you are full of power and light. A born leader, you easily draw people toward you. You are full of courage and usually up for anything dangerous. You have a huge ego and love to be the center of attention.
What's Your Power Element?
Your Kissing Technique Is: Perfect
Your kissing technique is amazing - and you know it. You have the confidence to make the first move. And you always seem to know what kissing style is going to work best. Sometimes you're passionate, sometimes you're a tease. And you're always amazing!
Are You a Good Kisser?
You Are 64% Open Minded
You are a very open minded person, but you're also well grounded. Tolerant and flexible, you appreciate most lifestyles and viewpoints. But you also know where you stand firm, and you can draw that line. You're open to considering every possibility - but in the end, you stand true to yourself.
How Open Minded Are You?
You Are a Realist
You don't see the glass as half empty or half full. You see what's exactly in the glass. You never try to make a bad situation seem better than it is... But you also never sabotage any good things you have going on. You are brutally honest in your assessments of situations - and this always seems to help you cope.
Are You An Optimist or Pessimist?
You Are 69% Addicted to Love
Might as well face it, you're very addicted to love. But you're not really getting the deep love you seek. Short lived, dramatic relationships are more your style. Let go of needing someone, and you may find someone you actually want.
Are You Addicted to Love?
Your Dominant Intelligence is Musical Intelligence
Every part of your life has a beat, and you're often tapping your fingers or toes. You enjoy sounds of all types, but you also find sound can distract you at the wrong time. You are probably a gifted musician of some sort - even if you haven't realized it. Also a music lover, you tend to appreciate artists of all kinds. You would make a great musician, disc jockey, singer, or composer.
What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?
Your Seduction Style: Ideal Lover
You seduce people by tapping into their dreams and desires. And because of this sensitivity, you can be the ideal lover for anyone you seek. You are a shapeshifter - bringing romance, adventure, spirituality to relationships. It all depends on who your with, and what their vision of a perfect relationship is.
What Is Your Seduction Style?
You Are a Sensitive Kisser
For you, kissing is a way to connect And you need lot of care, attention, and privacy It may take you a while to kiss someone... But when you do, it's total fireworks
What's Your Kissing Style?
How You Are In Love
You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time. You tend to take more than give in relationships. You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time. You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change. You are fickle and tend to fall out of love easily. You bounce from romance to romance.
How Are You In Love?
Posted by BeBe at 11:47 AM
70? with some missing
1. Who is the last person you held hands with?err.. somebody.. =)
2. If you were drafted into a war,would you survive?
maybe?
3. Do you sleep with the TV on?
no.. havnt switch it on for like months..
4. Have you ever drank milk straightout of the carton?
yup..
5. Have you ever won a spelling bee?
hmmm?
6. What is your longest fight you had with one of your friends?
errrr....
7. Are you a fast typer?
no leh
8. Are you scared of the dark?
nope..
10. Who can you always turn to?
the pig sijie and piggy pig.. why everybody oso pig.. -.-'''
11. When's the last time you chose a bath over a shower?
errrr... long before your time.. =s
12. Do you knock on wood?
hmm? knock my head on the wood?
13. Are you drinking anything right now?
nope..
14. Do you think you're attractive?
no ba..
17. What do you want for your next birthday?
something the same for every birthday.. ~~~
18. Do you know the muffin man?
wads that? can eat one?
19. Do you talk in your sleep?
haha.. no la..
20. Have you ever flown a kite?
yup... long before ur time oso..
22. When was the last time that youwent swimming and where?
errrr... forgot when.. but think is sentosa.. lol
23. Do you consider yourself successful?
nah.. if im successful i wunt be like wad im now.. =s
24.How many people are on your contactlist of your cell phone?
haha!.. 14.. yes.. FOURTEEN.. juz lost my phone not long ago.. =.=
25. Have you ever jumped on a trampoline?
???? wads tt???
26. Plans for tommorrow?
duno.. the day i plan alwaz wunt happen..
27. What's your middle name?
no middle name la
28. Missing someone right now?
hmm.. yup.. =)
29. When's the last time you told someone you loved them?
o.o ... 4 mths ago?
31. How are you feeling today?
sleepy.. and i wanted something which i alwaz wunt get..
33. Have you ever been suspended or expelled from school?
no.. im a good boy.. =)
34. What are you looking forward to?
a day when i can spend all my time with someone..
37. Have you ever eaten dog food?
yup.. doggy treat.. honey flavor.. not bad.. =)
38. Can you handle the truth?
maybe?
40. What 3 things do you always bring with you to places?
wallet. hp and keys la..
41. What are your plans for summer?
hmm? u mean like theres other season in sg other den summer? haha
42. Do you like or have a crush on anyone?
hmm.. maybe..
45. How often do you talk on the phone?
depends on whos on the other side of the line.. but normally not.. =)
46. Do you believe in love?
why not? if u believe, it will happen.. =)
47. Is there something you want that you can't have?
yes.. YES.. yup yup.. somethings and somebody.. =)
48. Three things about the opposite sex that you first notice?
hmm.. appearance.. attitude.. character..
50. Who did you last see other than family?
my gay partner, eugene and kulaa at kbox..
51. where is your cell phone?
infront of me.. about 10cm away
54. Favorite Color(s)?
my life is in black n white
55. Last movie you watched?
Himalayah Singh.. LOL
56. What song are you currentlylistening to?
lin yu zhong - mao tou ying
57. What do you want?
someone
59. What t.v. show are you watching?
none
60. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
my mum.. =.=
61. Is it cute when a gal kiss you on your forehead?
sweet..
62. What would you do if you received a long love letter?
errr.. read and keep lor.. =s
63. Jeans or shorts?
jeans
64. Do you text message alot?
haha... if i find someone to sms with..
65. Do you believe in love at first sight?
haha.. not really ba..
66. Gold or silver?
silver
67. On a scale of 1-10 how much do gals confuse you?
hmm.. 10.. haha
68. Tropical drinks, or Starbucks?
tropical.. hehe.. healthy lifestyle
69. Do you ever picture your wedding dress and wedding?
i wunt hav a wedding DRESS i suppose.. =s .. but.. haha.. nv thot of it..
70. Any last words?
this wunt be my LAST word..
Posted by BeBe at 11:12 AM
Wednesday, June 06, 2007
rainbows
behind every dark clouds, theres sure a sun brightly shining..after the sky dropped its tears, it would be a sunny day again..
it creates an arc of rainbow in my world, stretching across the blue sky..
but for there will sure be another dark cloud covering the sunshine..
i wanna enjoy this moment of warmth as thou it lasts for ethernity..
this sweet but limited feeling..
as thou its like rubbing sugar onto a wound..
for i noe, its not gonna last..
therefore, i wanna treasure every rainbow that came across my sky..
before its gone, i would pick it out from the sky..
and hide it in a corner in my heart..
whenever dark clouds appear, i can then peep into my heart..
to remind me that, there will be another rainbow going to be placed in my heart.. maybe..
its painful.. to hav so much rainbow in my heart..
not afraid of it getting overflown.. but rather forgetting wad each rainbow represents..
nobody noes.. after the next rain.. will there be another rainbow hanging above..
wad will i gonna do.. already carrying so much rainbows in my heart..
theres no way i will discard them away..
as my heart has already been dyed by the rainbows..
all i can do is to continue collecting them..
every ending leads to a new begining..
would it be the same for the weather in my heart..
how i wish that there will alwaz be this sunshine after every rain..
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6th june
today.. i caught another rainbow after the thunder storm..
thanks for the sunshine that i hav been searching for..
jus when i needed it most.. searching high and low..
almost drowned in the thunderstorm..
i saw the warm-est and sweet-est sunshine..
and the most beautiful rainbow appeared in my heart..
=)
Posted by BeBe at 11:12 PM
Saturday, June 02, 2007
stolen
Police Station Of OriginBukit Merah West N.P.C
500 Bukit Merah View #01-01 Singapore
159682
Tel no: 1800-3779999
Date/Time Report Made
02/06-2007 19:01
Name Of Informant
LEUNG SIU WAI
Occupation
Unemployed
Sex
Male
Age
21
Race
Chinese
Language
English
Date/Time Of Incident
02/06/2007 16:30 - 02/06/2007 17:00
Location Of Incident
APT BLK 95 Henderson Rd Basketball Court SINGAPORE
Brief details. This report shall be signed by the informant.
On 2/6/2007 @ 1630hrs at B/95 Henderson Rd, basketball court. I placed my black pouch on the floor at one of the basketball pole. I then went to play basketball with my friends. Shortly, one of my friend (Victim 2) saw a kid came and sat near to my pouch, he saw the kid moved my pouch and hid behind him. (V2) then approached the kid and took the said pouch from him and placed it near to the basketball pole. As the pouch was within our view thus we continued playing.
On the same day @ 1700hrs. I discovered my black pouch was missing and the kid also no longer at scene. I did a search at the vicinity, but to no avail. This is NOT the first time of such incident had happened. I have 1 suspect in mind.
Description of the kid: Male Chinese about 10 years old, wearing red T-shirt and Bermudas.
Description of missing my pouch containing items are as follows:
Victim 1
1. One Sony Ericsson W710i, valued $650 /-IMEI: 353066015946753
2. One bunch of 5 keys
3. Cash S$5/-
4. One black pouch valued at $20
Victim 2
5. One Nokia 7610, valued $650 /-IMEI: 355382005151025
6. One grey wallet valued at $20/-
7. One bunch of 3 keys
8. One Singapore NRIC
9. One POSB ATM card
10. One Student Pass
11. One Ezlink card
12. Cash S$20
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its like so wtf sia.. nett total is like $1365++ worth of valuables.. GONE!!!.. juz in a mere 30min... or less.. kao.. nv do i trust small kids again.. NEVER!!!