Wednesday, April 25, 2007
zero degree
partial mental disorder-ed
didnt go work today
supposedly already awoke since 7am
bathed.. get changed.. sat down.. i juz vent my mood out
sat down at the sofa.. thinking of wad i've read..
many things juz flash past me
msg bp say i not going work..
got out on my krave and off to east coast
it was a sunny morning.. but not anymore
started to drizzle when i reach clark quay
till it become pouring rain when i reach kallang
cold.. drenched.. tired.. famished.. my mind was blank..
i juz keep on going..
surprisingly east coast lagoon food center is under renovation..
and its still pouring..
drenched.. with no where to go.. cold.. with no warmth to hold
at tt point.. i realised.. tts my life..
i was alwaz on my own.. heading no where..
i was dripping wet and the wind is as cold as blizzard
who can i call for help?
who would come to help?
why shld i call for help?
when i noe no one would be here..
i duno whether issit rain or tear on my face
but still i hav to go on..
not to let the cold catch hold of me..
where shld i head to?
wads my aim?
where is my destination?
i duno
the rain helped to cleanse my mind
i juz cant think of anything..
maybe.. juz 1.. at tt moment..
when i come around.. i was on my way back home..
was out for 2.5 hrs..
reach home took a hot shower..
and sleep my afternoon away..
woke up only at 9pm..
and there comes the nagging again..
shut
Posted by BeBe at 1:22 AM